the case of dora.
over the weekend i learned that: i never learned fundamental facts of anatomy and physiology; i’ve never understood how sexual intercourse actually works; never known what “intimacy” means; never been with a man who made me feel attractive and cared for; quite possibly never been with a man i was attracted to. i learned what is meant by “sex drive” and how it is the momentum of orgasm.
a startling lot of things to learn. all these years and i’ve been confused about some truly basic concepts.
it occurs to me that i haven’t had a sober sextype encounter since i was 16. i don’t think. (a sobering thought…) which does certainly have something to do with it.
anyway, at 29 it seems like these could be embarrassing things to say. but i feel very poignant about myself, today.