earlier, i wrote a lot of sad things in a legal pad.
today is not a nothing from no one day. people have talked to me. (i was informed about ramp. that is, Allium tricoccum. and its growing mainstream popularity.) and people have been kind to me. (a friend is someone who gives you a place to stay when you are undergoing experimental gynecological interventions.) but the horrible gnawing burrowing thing has come back. i really hope it is something like a temporary effect of SSRI withdrawal. and not (something like) a fresh demon.