new england mon amour.
in the mail yesterday i got a big packet of disclosures, consents, etc. from the mad doctor’s office. (yes, dr. strangelove would be a great name for him, but i think dr. strangelove is too brilliant to turn into a nickname.) so i have sat down at my actual desk to start working through it. alea iacta est but there are some not-ungory details. and of course plenty of boilerplate to give paws. (definitely did not like reading: Unknown Risks. The long-term effect of BOTOX on tissue is unknown. though, uh, i guess that’s an important thing to know. though of course botox hasn’t been around that long, so i guess i knew that anyway. so—i guess that’s more like an important thing to see written out.)
the not-ungory-details moved me to get online and start poring over post-Procedure accounts and dilation narratives—(there is a pretty pink messageboard full of these)—now i am in over my head. (help i am drowning in a sea of surgilube and precious bodily fluids!)
swamped with detail, i turn to google and type: open me carefully.*
i was looking to be comforted and sustained but i cannot not inform myself about the “Restoration of Emily Dickinson’s Bedroom” apparently ongoing at the Emily Dickinson Museum. wow. talk about gory details. Emily Dickinson Museum, you are making me feel uncomfortable. :
Enough information can be assembled through posthumous descriptions and forensic investigation to understnad how her bedchamber looked during her lifetime. A more precise interpretation of her room is possible through reproduction of iconic items of her personal furniture (at Harvard University since 1950); acquisition of household accoutrements, window dressings, and carpeting; and restoration of architectural and decorative elements in the room. The recent discovery of large wallpaper fragments leads to the exciting possibility of covering the walls in a reproduction of Dickinson’s own wallpaper.
A budget of $150,000 will enable the Emily Dickinson Museum to complete an evocative restoration of the bedroom with all the visual and atmospheric quality of an inhabited personal and creative space. Visitors will appreciate the view into Dickinson’s intimate world and will be able to imagine more clearly the poet at work in her room.
* the word ‘dilation’ makes my skin crawl. i didn’t even want to type it up there. i think it might be an objectively skin-crawly word.